Even in the middle of my second trimester, I just can’t get into workouts that involve pillows. I just… can’t.
I’m not making this up!!!
I ordered a few yoga/pilates dvds from the library and two of them have involved using a pillow. I just press next. I am trying to keep some balance in my fitness routine, but I have a hard enough time sticking with a regular yoga workout, much less an even slower-paced prenatal workout.
This prenatal barre dvd is the only one I’ve found that I can stand. It’s full of those super tiny but absolutely excruciating movements with lightweights. Kevin saw me doing it one day and asked if it was easy…. haha nope. I can push press 135lbs, but make me hang on to 2.5lb plates for ten minutes straight…. owwwwwww. I’m also going to try Baby Bells which I ordered today in a fit of frustration. Haha. :)
Weeks 18-22 at CrossFit:
I don’t do:
- hspus — I pretty much stopped with these when I found out I was pregnant. They are one of my worst skill anyways so I’m not going to add to that the struggle of my increased body weight. Plenty of people do them, but they are debatable, and it didn’t hurt a bit to let them go. I still do short handstand holds just so I don’t forget how to kick up against the wall. Took me MONTHS to build up the courage to do that for the first time. :)
- buddy carries — have randomly come up in a few workouts. No one really wants to carry me AND my baby. Plus I don’t feel comfortable having someone on my back right now.
- sandbag get-ups — were on the board one day and just seemed like a bad idea. I have a hard enough time sitting up in bed. I just passed on those.
- 1 rep maxes — we’re not really on a strength-heavy cycle right now, but it’s pretty clear I won’t be maxing out anytime soon.
- rope climbs — Skipping for obvious reasons.
- burpees — they came up on Saturday, and I was like… I don’t knoooow…. But I tried it, and I still have good control. My stomach’s not hitting the ground first. So as long as I’m not aggressively going “for time”… I can handle it. I also did burpee box jumps last week… very slowly. Like I did 5-6/minute. It was in an AMRAP or I probably would’ve passed.
- box jumps — did them last week. I know I’m not going to be one of the people that does them all the way through. The minute I think I could biff it, they’re out.
- pull-ups — I’ve been too scared to try a strict pull-up lately. I’m 99% sure I’ve lost it. Kipping pull-ups are not my favorite either. Sets of 2 make my life a miserable.
- running — haha. okay. I’m not going to quit running, but it sucks!!! I feel so confused when I run. Like — why am I going sooooo slow?!?!?! It’s like I’m in slow motion.
- Double unders. They are only trick I have left. I think because I am extremely efficient with them. They actually irritate me less than things like power cleans & push presses because the jump is smaller and under my complete robotic control.
- Squats. Feel really good so far.
- That’s it.
Some notable wods:
- 400m max effort run- 1:41 (9/15) Longer than a true 400, and on crappy sidewalks so I was careful.
- 500m row max effort – 1:48.3 (9/8) Technically a pr since I didn’t have one on record.
- 1000m row max effort- 3:58.3 (9/29) 12 seconds slower than my pr. 4 minutes is now too long for me to go my hardest. :/
- Helen benchmark wod – 16:20 RX (9/24) A lousy time, but technically a pr since I’d never done it. Haha. Might be the last “for time” workout I will do that includes pull-ups, depending on the rep scheme.
- DT hero wod – 14:12 @ 95lbs. I’ve rx’ed this workout before (105lbs) so it stung a little bit to drop the weight. It was the right decision. But it didn’t hurt to realize that I still probably have 105 in me since I did all the push jerks (the hardest element) unbroken.
- The only workouts I ever really do as well as I would normally are those that are heavy on the double unders. But I still take waayyy more breaks than I normally would.
Haha. Just being honest. I have a lot of feelings about my slipping abilities. It sucks to look at at a workout and just be like nope, that’s not going to happen. It sucks going into a workout knowing full well that your time will be worse than the last time you did it or that you need to drop the weight. If I look at Wodify, and it’s a wod that will just crush my spirit, I choose to stay home and work on skills here. I am trying to still go into my box at least 4x a week just to participate, see my friends, and make sure I’m not totally “cherry picking.”
That said, of course I know (mentally) that this is just a season, and it will pass. Yes, I’m thankful that I’ve been extremely healthy and that the baby is doing great! I know it sounded maybe a little like I was complaining about my loss of skills, but I am diligent about not pushing myself too hard. I know for some people that wouldn’t be hard.. haha. They can embrace the couch time a little easier as needed, and good for them! But for me, I’m hypersensitive, naturally more determined than I’d sometimes like to be, and extra emo right now so it’s hard for me to lose my favorite hobby while going through a season that is (for me) emotionally difficult. The timing seems unfair!!!
On a positive note, I feel like I’m finally out of pregnancy denial (haha), and I even feel like I’ve bonded a little bit with the baby. I mean, I told Kevin I thought one of the ultrasound pics was cute… that’s obviously a face only a mother could love. <3
How to deal:
One thing I’ve noticed is that when I take a lot of breaks, I have more time to see what other people are doing and cheer them on. I’m sure this sounds ridiculous if you don’t CrossFit, but yes, we cheer for people while we workout! Similarly, my CF BFF is going to be in her first competition outside of our gym this week. I’m trying to focus some of my energy on trying to encourage her. Okay, so maybe I’ve been bossing her around a lot and trying to help her with her double unders. You can take the teacher out of the school… Plus, hey, it’s not all about me!
Secondly, Is that sometimes I just want to quit now. It’s hard to just know that each week will be “downhill.” But, I don’t just exercise for me anymore. I do what I can for my baby and my family. So I guess I’m trying to look at it less as competing and more as just training. Also, training for labor & delivery… GROSS!!!! :) I’ve had several CrossFit moms tell me how much they feel their training helped them, especially mentally during labor.
Finally, I still always feel much better once I workout. It also helps greatly with fatigue and having the energy to keep up with my business and my piano students.
Sorry if you had to read that. I’m trying to stay positive, but I also think it sometimes can help to know that you’re not the only crazy one feeling a particular way so I thought I’d share.
Boyd is CUTE!!!
P.S. I love following the birthfit Instagram! Don’t worry, it’s not people giving birth. Just super fit pregnant ladies.